There really isn't a great way of ever expressing the pain and sadness of losing my Dad. He was simply the best and I wish I could be more like him. I'm trying everyday, but it sure is hard and I'm not anywhere close to being as Christ-like and loving, patient, service-minded, without guile...the list goes on and on...as he is.
We all miss him terribly.
I remember the sweet moments Lexie and Joseph shared with him in the hospital. Them drawing sweet pictures for him (esp. Lexie of the Nativity on the magnadoodle). The night Rick and I got to spend with him there. I wish we had come just a bit sooner. The kids and I showed up at the hospital right after he passed. We brought Mom up. When we walked into the room, the Spirit there was so strong. Even the kids instantly became reverent. It was so bittersweet. He passed listening to "Chariots of Fire", that reminded me of Joseph's thoughts on how he wants to die (weird huh,) but Grandpa did that, so I guess not too strange.
I remember telling the kids when we went in as a family and said goodbye that Dad's mouth isn't working so well to talk back to you but his ears work so well to hear you, his brain to understand and his heart to feel and show you that he loves you. I remember saying goodbye and bearing my testimony of family to him and thanking him for being so wonderful and for being my dad and saying I love you.
The night before he died we had such a fun time as siblings and Mom all gathered around Dad's hospital bed and telling stories and memories. It was really special. And then Erik pulled out a recording of Dad that he put together from his history interview. He said we all had our chance to share memories of Dad, now it's Dad's turn to talk. And it was great. It was him talking about each of us and our names and just things about us. It was really sweet.
I'm grateful everyone got to be there, even Matthew. It was bittersweet that they were both released from their missions on the same day (same 24 hr period).
I have a CD of pictures from the funeral, I need to find it and put some pictures on here.
I've got the best family around and the best parents. Very grateful for them and for the gospel and the blessings of the sealing power so we can all be together forever.